I Love What I'm Doing Right Now

After been awaken for the umpteen time, I cursed as I leaped off my bed and began changing. For those who hate been awaken while you're sleeping, you'll understand how I feel. That was a classic scenario of what I had been going through for the past 2 weeks as training.

I won't pretend and say that I was a perfect Christian during the past 2 weeks when i was undergoing training. The fact is that at times, I felt that I was so distant from God; that I was someone that wanted to do God's work, but yet I wasn't even catching God's heartbeat. Ironic, isn't it.

I remembered the scene where I laid on my bed in camp and as I prayed, the inner me broke down "Training's tough. I'm struggling to come to terms with what you have planned for me. Why can't things go the way I want them to? I feel like giving up!" I remembered myself picturing an imaginary wall in front of me and punching it with frustration, demanding God to give me an answer to all my questions immediately.

And God provided an answer.
I'm very sure that many of us are familiar with the song "no eye has seen".
The chorus is often one in which it is a man to God version, "Jesus take me in your hands, and make me all that you want me to be. Jesus help me understand, my purpose and what you can do through me, fulfilling my destiny."

Ever heard the God to man version?
"Let me take you in my hands, and make you all that I want you to be. I will help you understand your purpose and what I can do through you, fulfilling your destiny."

The inner being of me broke down as God reminded me of what I had solely lacked all this time. Amidst all my complaints, grumbles and my own short sightedness, I had failed to wait for God's perfect timing and God's divine touch; that sometimes the best solution to our problems is to simply wait on God and listen to him.

Proverbs19:21
Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.

That's why I love what I'm doing right now.