For 2011

A pure heart that is willing to focus on God and one that is willed towards you alone.

Clean hands that are willing to go the extra mile, to be rooted in your Word, to do your work with faithfulness.

A sound mind that makes decisions, that prioritizes you above all things.

Everything changes, but you remain the same.

A victorious 2011 :)

I am a child of God, not a fire man.

Haha. What a reminder.

"The place of sacrifice is indeed the place of power."

Wow. Posting this as a reminder.

I suppose we all have thousands of songs in our mp3 or ipod. And the fact is that we never really actually remember to or attempt to listen to all of them don't we?

I had this interesting thought while en route to camp that day. I plugged in my ipod and i decided to just randomly listen to songs; wow to the first song, and a cringe to the second song though.

"How on earth do I have such a song in my ipod?!"

Resisting the urge to change the song, I decided to continue listening to it. As time continued to tick, I couldn't help but admit that the song was really nice.

I wonder if anyone has gone through such a similar experience as me. Haha. I wonder if That's how we respond to God as well. That we wouldn't hesitate to switch off or move on without first listening to everything that God has to say.

Food for thought.

Food For Thought

Brokenness plays a part in everyone's lives. And God allows it to happen.

Perhaps it's really something about brokenness that draws people to God; that there's something more than what we're living for right now.

At the NUS Macdonalds

If I don't look like someone closed up, I sure am. I've really been amazed about how much things I keep inside of me while I insist that I will sort it out with the relevant things or people in my life. And I realized that it isn't very healthy.

Yesterday was a personal day of travelling around Singapore. My mid way check point was at NUS's Macdonalds for shepherding. I was just talking to my shepherd about the many things that have been happening in my life over this past few months when God really touched in me a certain area of my life that just hurt so bad.

The fact about me was that I've been running away from this issue, somehow. I realized once again that it really means a lot to really lift up every single area of my life and to really tell God that you can have all of me; that you can have my whole life. As i was reminded timely by my shepherd, to believe in something is one thing. To be convicted of the same thing is another. I remembered reading somewhere that Man shouldn't use the word "conviction" so readily. To be convicted is in it's very essence more than belief. It's about dedicating and living my life wholly in such a particular way, because I'm convicted about this. Imagine the seriousness of telling God that I'm convicted about this.. But yet I don't live fully for it. Imagine how detestable it would in God's sight.

Growing and splitting the caregroup from 1 to 2, 2 to 4 and so on. It's right isn't it? That's the best way in which The Great Commission is going to be fulfilled. I really believe that is God's heartbeat for his church as well. From the splitting of the caregroup to the splitting of the unit, the district, the service and then the church. That will be the glorious and passionate bride that Jesus is waiting for; the bride that Jesus will come back eventually to redeem.

It's right, but it isn't powerful if we merely believe in it. That the idea of belief and conviction don't seem so far apart but the lining in between is perhaps that a burden and a conviction in what we do is so much more powerful than merely believing in something.

On the way home, I felt so personally challenged to find a burden for this that it really made the inside of me break down as I thought more about it. Perhaps, it's fear. Or maybe it's a lack of courage. Nevertheless, I came down to this conclusion, that it's always going to be difficult anyway, that the Bible states so clearly that we are fighting not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms, but I suppose the difference between fighting a battle and running away is simply making the decision to fight. And all the more it makes sense to fight this battle, because this battle is God's and perhaps he has planned this to happen in my life, right here and right now.

Matthew6:10

Your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven

The bigger the problem, the bigger the need for God, the bigger the miracle that God will provide. The bigger the extent of his glory. Let's go!

When You're Down And Out

Some of the quotes that have really struck me in particular over these few weeks

"We can't determine what our results are, but we can choose the right response."

"The worship atmosphere of our service is really bad as compared to the rest. I find myself often complaining, but we are improving. So let's do what is within our capabilities to the best that we can. And shepherding is something that we must do well, because it is within our control."

"We can't choose the circumstance that we tend to fall into, but we can jolly well choose the right response!"

Isn't it always the same principle, that we can always do something about our current predicament? That phrases like I can't do anything anymore, I'm not going to do anymore since I feel I've tried my best, I'm tired of all these and so on, don't seem to make sense. By simply saying all these, we have actually done something or made a decision, perhaps a negative one.

Perhaps, when we're down and out, what we really need to do is pray.