My heart is not big enough for this, it's really not. One day you'll know and you'll understand. I hope you do. Let's hope that it won't be too late.

Passivity kills. If you want something, fight for it. 

It's ironic that we can't have what we want. Or what we desire. Is that what we have been taught? Or is that the fundamental element of what we truly believe in?

For all the knowledge and experiences that we have, we struggle to decide what we want. We struggle to set our priorities. We have difficulty in making the right decisions. We decide at times that we want to live our own lives, to live by our own seemingly limited view points. We somehow choose to live being tossed around by the times. Is that what we truly want and desire?

The wants and the needs. I know. 

You know it's right, in your mind. But your heart differs.

Hope Conference 2011

I'm writing this down, so I won't forget.

It was an AMAZING conference, one which entailed many emotions, a shift in responsibilities but most importantly, a breakthrough in my relationship with God. I believe that in this short 2 days, God did a new work in my heart; he broke and demanded my heart in the way that only he can and offered me a new one, a fresh heart. Through the mixed array of emotions that I went through, from the indescribable joy to thee uncontrollable tears on occasions, I believed God showed me just a slight part of his heart for people, just a bit of his compassion and his love for people.

The Bible says that we should guard our heart, because it is the wellspring of life. And so I pray that although I may just have witnessed God's perspective of the world for a short momentary moment; his love and compassion that cries out to his people that simply because of the fact that we are all sinners (like it or not) and simply because sin has caused us all to fall short of the perfect standard of God, help me to remember I need more and more of God in my life. To put on God's lenses and view the world.

"I just want to serve.."

Theses was something that struck me deeply. It's not about what i can accomplish for God, but it's about what God can accomplish through me if I offer up everything that I have; just like the small boy in the Bible that offered up his five loaves and two fishes to God. He didn't have much, but God multiplied his willingness to feed the multitudes. Or the poor widow in the Bible, who gave just like how the rich gave, but she gave her all. Her two small coins, probably insignificant mattered in God's eyes.

A promise I made to God, that I'll do everything possible to advance his kingdom, that the victory that was won by the sacrifice of one, will continue to multiply and multiply and multiply, winning the souls of man one by one till the day Jesus returns.

There'll be joy and there'll be tears, but I would rather walk though the gates of Heaven. badly bruised and exhausted spiritually then to walk through knowing that I didn't do my best when I was on earth.

⁵ Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. ⁶ He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him.

Psalm126:4-5

What It Means To Be Without God

Something stirred in my heart today, "That we can achieve nothing, and I mean nothing; all the sacrifices, tears, sweat and hard work will all count for nothing, if God is not with us!".

Something really stirred today.

A burden.

For 2011

A pure heart that is willing to focus on God and one that is willed towards you alone.

Clean hands that are willing to go the extra mile, to be rooted in your Word, to do your work with faithfulness.

A sound mind that makes decisions, that prioritizes you above all things.

Everything changes, but you remain the same.

A victorious 2011 :)

I am a child of God, not a fire man.

Haha. What a reminder.

"The place of sacrifice is indeed the place of power."

Wow. Posting this as a reminder.